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Lindsay_Loo_OBU
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Name: Lindsay
Birthday: 9/1/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Hmm...dancing, singing, music, computers, watching movies, hanging out with friends, laughing so hard that you can't breathe, inside jokes...and most importantly building my relationship with God
Expertise: Expertise? I do not know the word...I have a tendency to be clumsy and a perfectionist (which do not go hand in hand ;P)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Computers (Software)
Message: message me
AIM:  obusuitefriend
Member Since:
4/22/2005
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| What a busy week! I knew the last two weeks were going to be hectic, but I got through it as usual. Here's last week for ya:
Monday - workstudy/class til 5:30, library, dinner, wal-mart, homework, presentation practice at 8:15, done at 10:30
Tuesday - class from 8-5 but I end up only going til 3, paper, advertising presentation at 5:30, hop in the car at 6, cirque du solei at 7:30, back at 11:30
Wednesday - okay I slept in :), workstudy 1-3, doctor's appointment at 3:30, homework, Cracker Barrel, painting til 8:30, getting SAI stuff together til 10:30
Thursday - slept in again, class from 11-4:30, swing dance, SAI/PMA leadership team meeting, dinner, Jacob's exhibit reception, Wind Ensemble concert, paper, laundry, in bed at 3
Friday - wasn't too busy finally, Carrie's piano recital
I know most of you won't read all of that, but it's feels good just to write it all down. Seriously, I was so scattered-brained this week that I can't even remember what I did last week other than a couple graphic design projects and helping with a reception. I couldn't even remember where I parked on Thursday when I went to look for it Friday. I had left it behind the music building.
This week had some pretty rough patches. I had another panic attack on Tuesday. I'm so tired of feeling like this, but hopefully spring break will help me relax and get my head back on straight. On Friday someone swore to me that they were going to blow their brains out if I hung up on them. He told me later that he wasn't serious, but the fact that he has access to guns 24 hours a day doesn't give me any relief.
Although I had these rough times, I can't believe what all else happened this week. I've been surrounded by so much art in the last few days...it's been great. Tap, jazz, swing, and cha-cha dancing, wind ensemble recital, art receptions, presenting my ads in a presentation, and to top it all off Cirque freaking du Solei. It was amazing. A little awkward, but amazing haha. The second half was a little, well, sexually obvious. For example:
*after ripping off his coat, revealing only suspenders, the "bad buy" rips off a girls suit, revealing a bustier*
Bobby - Is it just me, or do I sense a little sexual tension in the second half?
Me - Just a little. (sarcastically, of course)
It was still great, though. Anyway, I need to go finish a layout and ad for graphic design. Oh, I found out my copy of Garden State has started skipping. Over all of my favorite parts. Sad times :( | | |
| Wow. I must have broken a mirror in my sleep or something.
Slept through both my alarms. Yes, i set two.
Got to class 45 minutes late (but it's a 2 hour class...all of mine are.)
Fought with Photoshop for an hour on something that should of been really easy.
My professor just clicks one thing and it works perfectly. When he leaves, it goes back to not working.
I hate painting. I'm a painting behind and about to be 2 behind.
Went back to graphic design. My professor sits with me again and helps me with it, i work on it for half an hour. When I go to save it..."unexpectedly quit." Nothing saved.
So after all of this, I decided I could go wallow in my room or I could go learn cha-cha over at the Wesley. Dance was really fun and a good stress reliever. I even stayed a few minutes extra to re-learn swing dance moves from last week. And then while trying to attempt the coat-hanger, I slammed my feet into his boots. Now my right big toenail is all bloody and my toe is red and purple. At least dance was fun while it lasted.
On a lighter note, I'm done with classes for the week. Thank goodness. I'd probably break my arm walking across campus. | | |
| So because of being sick for a week and not feeling like doing anything productive, I'm slowly getting further and further behind on homework and graphic design projects. I have a few papers to finish, a painting to finish, one to start, and two graphic design projects to finish. I have to do a degree plan check, and I have to start searching for more internships and setting up appointments. Ahh!! I'm not sure how all of this snuck up on me. The weird thing is that I'm not really worried about it. At the same time, though, I'm not really doing anything about all of it. So, yeah, I'm going to be busy for the next couple weeks. This weekend had its ups and downs. I went to LR on Friday to see Jesse before he deploys. I discovered that I'm still not dealing well with emotional times. I only knew a few people, the house was crowded with his family and neighbors, and I felt in the way and alone. I couldn't talk, and the noise of everyone talking was deafening. I hate feeling like I'm going crazy. I know I'm not having panic attacks but I'd like to know what the heck is going on with my mind. On a lighter note, I came back that night to Jon and Jason's apartment to catch the end of game night and watch The Office. Saturday night was girl's night with Laura and Lola. We watched PS I Love You (yes, I have a copy already, shh!) and stared at Irishmen. Quite nice :) Anyone care to go with me to Ireland for New Years? It's only $750 for a plane ticket right now! If only I had a few thousand dollars lieing around... | | |
| Happy belated Valentine's Day! You know what I got?! A stomach bug.  It's okay though. I'm starting to feel better after hours of sleep...and the 80s dance was a blast! Tomorrow I'm supposed to go skating, but I'll have to see how I feel in the afternoon. Hopefully, this junk is going away. | | |
| So..I think I'm going to try this whole xanga thing again. I keep telling myself that I'm going to start journaling and I don't, so I guess this is the next to best thing. I don't really have any profound reason for starting this up again. I just need a place to let out my feelings. And it's always nice to look back and see what I've been up to recently. I don't have too good of a memory. Oh, and I gave up facebook for lent because I spend WAY too much time on it. Hopefully I won't do the same with xanga though. This week is Christian Focus Week on campus. I've made it to a couple of the worship services so far. Today's sermon struck me pretty hard. The speaker talked about how we should use our tongue. How can we praise God with our mouths one minute and then be tearing others down the next? After this week, it really put me in my place. Just because I may not particularly like someone and have trouble agreeing with them doesn't mean I should go hang up the phone and go bad mouth them. That's not biblical at all, and just isn't nice. I've dealt with verbal abuse ever since I can remember. Why would I talk down to people and throw sarcastic remarks in their face if I'm tired of the same thing happening to me? Fact is, I shouldn't. Looking back at my posts from last year, apparently I was in a rut. I don't remember being that down, but I'm glad to not feel that way anymore. Granted, now I'm dealing with anxiety issues, but who doesn't have something to deal with? God always has a reason for everything, though. Like Saturday, for instance, I had some sort of attack. I wouldn't say panic attack, but it was just this overwhelming sensation and I had to go to my room to calm down. My mom had never seen me do that. She'd heard me talk about how I feel, but she'd never seen how bad it could get. So that was kind of an awakening for her, I guess. Oddly enough all my anxiety and stress has made mine an my mom's relationship even better. I know everything will eventually get better though. I just can't let little things get to me like I've been doing. | | |
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